I just had the most amazing sensation.

I was lying on my bed with a pounding headache, half-way undressed in my dark and ugly room. I had just stopped listening to bad 80s metal, and earlier today I had gone to a depressing family Easter party. Birds chirping and lawn sprinklers going, sounds of the suburbs. I was thinking about girls, my old girlfriend, girls I'd met on the internet, random bitches on Livestream. And it felt exactly like the summer of 2008. Fucking crazy. And the weird thing is, it felt kind of good, a sort of doomed romanticism alongside the cripping depression.

I dunno. I'll probably delete this once I find somewhere else to put it. I just needed to write it while the emotion was still fresh. But still. Holy shit.